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Strengthening the Roots

It’s a stormy afternoon, rain falling gently as I watch the old school version of Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer and have soft ginger cookies.

I like old-fashioned Christmas things, moments and experiences that remind me of good memories and jolly times with my loves. I’ve pulled out my collection of Christmas movies, and have been watching them one by one, feeling warm and happy inside as I see beloved characters and story lines that never fail to cheer me.

Earlier I took a few of my Christmas decorations for a walk, setting them up in truly Australian settings instead of the pine trees and snowy fields of my Canadian childhood. It made me smile to see them perched jauntily next to peeling bark and lush green grass. It’s not the Christmas setting I grew up with, but it’s still special.

It’s been a quiet few weeks for me here as I took time to care for myself after some intense healing sessions.

When I started on this healing journey several years ago, nothing prepared me for the aftermath of healing. Those days and weeks and months when the raw wounds have been scrubbed clean and healed over, leaving gaping holes that need to be filled with new things, with good things.

I’ve felt like a garden plot after all the carrots have been pulled out. Quiet, peaceful, but barren.

I felt strangely still. A bit fidgety. Not quite sure what to do with myself now that the big battles were over, and the time of rebuilding had arrived. When you’ve been fighting for so long, regular life does not unfurl naturally.

So, I’ve given myself time. As much time as I need to figure out what to put in those gaps that have been occupied by pain and grief and loss.

I’m waiting still. And that’s OK. I don’t want to rebuild with just any old hodgepodge of stuff. I want to deepen my roots and feed my soul with nourishing things so I can grow strong and resilient.

I haven’t been able to put things into words or clear plans of action, so I’ve just been preparing for words and actions.

I’ve been clearing spaces around the farm where, when I’m ready, I can create and make and build again.

 

I cleared out the granny flat and made it into a cozy place where I can do my writing and editing and reading and artwork, and also where guests can have a comfy cave to hide away in when they come to visit.

We started a man cave veranda for Bear where he can do all his painting and leather work and chain maille and store his swords and other medieval bits and pieces.

I made three work stations in the breezeway that will be perfect for our wine-making, preserving, and butchering projects.

I’m not sure what I’ll be doing next, but it feels good to know that when I do know, the spaces I need will be ready for me.

I’m so thankful for this time of quietness and rest and hope too. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’m excited to see it unfold in good time.

Now it’s time to heat up carrot ginger soup for dinner, and join Rudolph in his adventure at the North Pole. xo

 

 

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Amanda - At this busy time of the year a little quiet, still time is like gold – so go for it! I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and a new year full of joy.

Cris - I love the way you write and tell your story. It makes me feel good about Christmas, as I was not feeling it yet. Gorgeous decorations and projects. Yes, a cave a space fo yourself and guests is a wonderful idea. I have my office where I made my refuge, my space, where everything comes to life in form of work. Where I create and reach towards my dreams. Thanks for sharing another gorgeous story. Have a lovely day. xoxo Cris
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Jackie Smith - In my own way I have been clearing space in my head and heart to start replanting myself in Greece. You’ve said so well how I’ve been feeling of late – the old me, at least for awhile is gone, so now it is time to decide who the new me will be!

Ruth Miranda - What a beautiful post! It’s so essential to let ourselves grieve and rebuild, to allow our bodies and spirits the time to heal, and we don’t do it often enough.

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budget jan - You are experiencing the calm after the storm – not before it. It is quite wonderful to feel peace – even if it is an empty peace at the moment. I’m sure you will fill the gap with wonderful things Krista. Loved seeing your Canadian Xmas decorations in the Aussie bush.

Tandy | Lavender and Lime - I so love your idea of decorating. Did you read this post: http://tandysinclair.com/the-choice/ I thought of you a lot when reading this book xx

Vesna - Hi Krista,
thank you for another enjoyable and inspiring post. I am going through a similar inner cleansing and healing process like you did a while ago, and even though with me it’s not a matter of getting rid of wounds but more of stale, unwanted and some unpleasant content, I am very grateful for the time I have to go through such a process. I have some rough ideas of how I would like to fill the fresh space but am not in a rush with the refilling. I feel it is important to take it slowly and let emotions, thoughts and ideas crystallize spontaneously. So, for now, like you yourself, I am focusing on a good rest and peace. And Christmas with its magic is a perfect time for that. I really like you decorations, and it’s lovely to see them in Australian natural settings of the season.
I wish you a wonderful holiday time and the very best for the future!
Vesna
xx

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