“It is important from time to time to slow down,
to go away by yourself, and simply be.”
I love a rainy afternoon.
Especially when I have time to sit on the back porch with my dog Luna and hear the drops plummeting onto the tin roof, watch them build into glossy puddles in the yard, and feel them spray my face when the wind gusts a little too hard in my direction.
I had that sort of day yesterday and it was such a gift.
As you know I’ve been very ill for several months. Initial tests revealed, among other things, that I am immunocompromised and my body is not absorbing nutrients. At all. Yipes! 🙂 Thankfully I have an amazing team alongside me – doctors, counselor, Reiki practitioner, nutritionists, kindred spirits – who are doing wonders in helping me get healthy again.
But some days it’s hard.
It’s difficult to build a beautiful life when each day is marked by severe exhaustion, intense pain, and a host of other unpleasant symptoms. It’s hard to be yourself when your new self functions so differently than the one you’re used to. And it’s hard to pursue good health and thriving relationships when just making it through each day is cause for celebration.
But I’m determined to keep trying. 🙂
One word has helped me above all others:
Although I’m not a healthy lass yet, I can still live a good and soul-affirming life if I do things slowly.
I can’t run or lift weights or any of the other things that keep a body fit and strong. But I can walk slowly and steadily and say, “You go girl!” each time I add five minutes to my regimen.
I can’t do all the work around the house and farm that I’d love to, but I can sit on the back porch in a rain storm and dream of the things I WILL do when I’m better. And in the meantime I can do the dishes or a load of laundry and cheer loudly for each project that gets crossed off the list.
I can’t rush around cooking up a storm, doing crafts and filling my freezer with freshly baked cookies. But I can do little things like one jar of pickled beans, one small batch of rhubarb ginger sauce, or one bowl of peppermint sugar body scrub.
That makes me happy.
What is one small thing you’d like to do this weekend to make your life a bit more beautiful?
“Always remember to slow down in life;
live, breathe, and learn;
take a look around you whenever you have time
and never forget everything and every person that has the least place within your heart.”